Why

Why I thought that he is gonna be the first one beside me!!!

Why I thought that he is gonna be the closest one to me specially in this case!!!

Why i thought that he will keep asking about me!!!

Where is his promisses about being together forever???

Where is his promisses that he will never forget me even after my death???

Maybe I didn't got him, or maybe he changed his mind!!! but why he didn't told me that he won't me the best of his best any more!?! Im still thinking about him... Still waiting everything he promissed to do for me...

I'm not mad for what is happening to me or what happened to me!!! because i used to have a treatment like this from people were so close to me, more than anyone can image!!! i swear that he ment and he still means alot to me, coz he know that he is more than a friend to me...

So, what can I do, to solve this out?!? I thought that i means to him much more than he showed or did to me!!! maybe i didnt got him, but this is what im feeling right now...

One thing I would like to say in the end... Thanks alot for everything, and I was there, and as I used to be; i'll stay there for anyone needs or wants me :0)

With all of my love...