The End

My End…
How do I live after the despair killed my hope?!
How do I live and there is no place for happiness in my life?!
How do I live sweet heart after you have announced my death time?!
How do I live and the blood has been stopped in my arteries?!
And how can I start over and in all the ways my end!!!

My Memories…
Do you remember sweet heart when you where dancing to my songs?!
Do you remember when I was calling you my sweet heart?!
Do you remember the poets I have written for you?!
Do you remember when I was hugging you and giving you my LOVE?!
Do you remember when I was burn your cold with my love’s fire?!
Do you remember?! Or you removed all my memories from your mind!

My sorrows…
My sorrows for my end while I’m still in the early beginning!

Come and don’t leave before the confirmation of my death…
Come and kill me with your daggers, stab me deep inside my heart…
And if I shout from the pain; please increase your stabs and my anguish!
Come and set over my shoulders and stop my breaths!
Go on and don’t stop, don’t stop your death sentence…
Don’t stop even you see my tears falling down like it will never stop!
Go on sweet heart, never stop and don’t mind…
There is no difference between my life and death any more!
And when you see my last breath, stand over my chest and announce my death!
Say the stupid is dead and he is still holding my memories…
The stupid lived for me and dead for me, even all of my betrayal!
He is dead after he gave all what I needed…
He is dead and he never got a piece of my love!

PAINFUL

Painful… That love’s days turn to a new wound!
Painful… When you try to heal your body, but you can’t!

Painful… To be killed by nostalgia whenever your memory starved!
Painful… To be burned in the dark before the arrival of the light!

Painful… When Patience become not beautiful!
Painful… When you’re away, and yourself is the only one who’s missing you!

Painful… To get the eco while you’re silent!
Painful… When you give and no one gives you!

Painful… When you plant a flower and all what you claim are thorns!
Painful… When you give her a flower, and she give it to other!
Painful… When you dry her tear, you cry a blood!

Painful… To get invade by fears when you love someone!
Painful… When you love someone, but she don’t deserve you!

Painful… To be shouted by the one who used to sleep over your shoulders!
Painful… When you have no one to trust!

In the end, it is all pains!
Live inside us… Sometimes we defeat it but sometimes it defeats us!

We bury it in a reduction and we buried with it!
But Pain born with loyal hearts…
And dies in traitors’ hearts! This is the life…
Chapters start with happiness and end with sadness…
Or Start with pain and end in happiness!

But there are people lives in pain all the life…Equivalent easy solution... Difficult result!

BLACK

I don’t know what to do, and where I can find a path of hope!

I don’t know how I was laughing while my soul was drowning in my tears…
I don’t know how I was dragging my sadness tears and turn it to a smile in my eyes!

Often I sing the tragedies of my life… And what happened?!

Where dispel that hope?! Why my sky become a sadness face, and its rains my tears!

Tears watering my thorns’ gardens sincerity and without fault?

Why is the life moving me like a doll without a will?!

Why my goals are turning me back?!

I have lived in the desert, and I only was seeing the oasis! I was shelter by its only palm, drinking its water from small spring water…

I didn’t care about its poisonous snakes neither its deadly scorpions!

But now… everything has changed! And it’s all out of my hand! The desert is desert now, scorpions and snakes every where chasing me like I have no place to hide in! Like I have painted a drear and mysterious world, inhabited with wolves and I’m the only human beings!

Why my life has become gloomy forest, bleak and terrifying, afraid from it and from everyone around?!

I’m still I’m and the time is the same… What has changed?

Will I stay like this or I’ll change?!

When the day will come to control my life again, to move the things around mw like how I want it to be?!
When can I repaint my life with birds and flowers every where!

After the joy becomes my unreachable dream, and the sadness nightmare, why I have to sleep then?

Time is comming

You know that you made me insane!
You are away & you are not asking about me…
You know… You know that I can’t live without you!
Because you know how much I love you!
Can you see your love in my heart?
No one else there with you!
I’m so tired… & you are just OK…

The time is coming… I know its coming
& I’ll stop talking to you
Your heart is black, and I’ll try to black my heart
Then… I’ll stop thinking of you

It’s my fault, not yours!
You are selfish, & I made you like that!
I cared about you more than anything else, even me & myself!
I’m sorry for all thatYou were my love’s color; you were my life’s portrait
I’m so insane… I’m so insane!

What do you want me to say? Tell me?!
I can’t say anything more...
What do you want me to do?
There is nothing more to do!I’ve told you everything…
I’ve told you everything…